today i went out to go study, but as soon as i went out i was hit with a wave of groundlessness; i didn't know where to go. usually its because there are so many places to study that the options themselves become the paralysis, but this time, i just felt like there was nothing keeping me grounded. i felt like i was homeless; consequently, i did all the little things that ive been neglecting, mainly cleaning out my carrel, but after that i decided to find another place to study, etc. eventually, i kept on walking around and around, down witherspoon, up and around, through holder, etc., eventually going all the way down to frist. there was just a sense of impermanence and i just didn't want to stop "going" a frustration or a nostalgia for a place that i have never been. it felt like i was wandering all around, trodding the same steps that i had been through before, some in new and some in old ways. hm.