Hmm and Rawr

Everything in the present is mundane. Meaning is only attributed later.
The most important event in history was the resurrection of Jesus.
Yet, if I were in that tomb when He was resurrected, I would have been simply surprised.
I would not know that it meant a cosmological restoration, the redemption of mankind, etc.

Then there are two options.
1) Meaning is artificial.
2) We lack the capacity to see meaning at the present time.

Reason says one, faith says two.

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In other news:

Today is one of those days when you want to just start a fight and punch people in the face. I like to think I'm a nice person most the time, but the old man fights back pretty strong. It's probably just because I'm tired, but recently, people have just been getting on my nerves, even for minor things. I'm tired of being patient and sometimes I just want to be left completely alone. I don't want to care about your situation. I do not want to hear your problems all the time. I'm tired of thinking all the time, being stressed out for other people, worried about other people. I want to be a solipsist, an island. I don't want to be attached to anyone and I don't want people to be attached to me. Loosy Goosy, wouldn't it be easy? Float through life like a balloon; it's a lie though, you know it and I do too.

How do priests and pastors do it? How is it possible to be a Christian all the time, to bear one another's burdens? I have my own burdens to bear, and they're enough for two.

"My yoke is easy and I am lowly in heart."
Then why is it so hard so many times?

Sigh. I should pray more.